Wednesday, September 29, 2010

最近这两天心情起伏真的很大,大起大落的
尤其特别容易心情低落到谷底
小小的事情就搞到我整个人没了心情,而且持续一段时间
心情就像,刚经历过地震的地区,杂乱无章
我毫无头绪,该如何整理

每次遇到这种情况,你的身影就会浮现我脑海。。。


对不起,我只能选择对你说谎
我心痛,但我知道这样对我们最好。。


我和你之间就好像隔着一座隔音墙
我大喊着我爱你,你却全然不知,完全听不见。
其实,有很多很多,你不知道的事。。。

Saturday, September 25, 2010

You and me

Looking at you from behind
I just realize, we are far away from each other.
No matter how hard i tried to get closer to you, there is always a limit.
No matter physically how close is me to you, our hearts are always far apart.
You own my heart, but i failed to occupy your heart. It's too far.

You know that, i am just so care about the way you looking at me.
Whenever you said somethings about me, no matter you are joking or other else, i was actually guessing what do you think about me from what you had said.
If you talk somethings bad about me, actually i quite mind, and i try to prove to you that i am actually not that bad. If i did, I will try my best to improve myself.
That's the power of you, that your single word can make me change.


看着你的背影
我渐渐发现,我们的距离其实很遥远。
我们之间的距离永远存在一个底限,无论我如何努力的靠近你。
表面上,我们可能走得很靠近,但是心,却相距遥远。
你拥有了我的心,但我却无法占据你心中最重要的那一块。

其实我很在意你对我的看法
当你说到任何关于我的事,我的心里总在猜测你怎样看待我,不管你是否在开玩笑
如果你说出了我的不好,我会尽量证明我并非如此。如果我真的是如此不好,我会尽量改善。
这就是,你不同之处,你的力量;一个字,足以改变我。。。

Monday, September 20, 2010

Sem 2, i'm back to UTAR

Yeah, "congrats" to all the UTARian, you guys are here again.
I'm back to the university again.
Sigh, it seems like not a very good beginning.

I'm glad that the very first period of sem 2 i manage to be in the same class with some of the TZ18ians, although the room is so damn hot.
But when i went to the maths tutorial class with Chen Yee, everybody in the class is just so strange. Where are my dear TZ18ians?
At that moment i felt so upset. Everybody is just so strange, really. I felt like i still can't adapt to such environment yet, moving to different class, and met different people.
But luckily that i got Chen Yee and Mandy them to accompany me...


And i failed, to change my timetable.
The Foundation General Office reject my claim to change my timetable.
Yeah, so nice. I gonna continue my super-duper sucks timetable till the end of the trimester. 14 weeks, so long
Argh!!! It really sucks!!!


Another bad day. Ishhhhhh

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Coward

I know that actually i improved a lots in this


But sometimes, as usual, opened the conversation with you
feel like wanna say somethings to you
but end up, the conversation still blank........
until you signed off...


Oh, coward.

Friday, September 17, 2010

EMO, just EMO

Recent days everyone is so emo.
I also emo already, not only being affected by others, but also cause of some other incidents..
I chat with friend, and i just realize, i am emo-ing cause of many many things
Huan who went back to Melaka today, my secondary school friends, HER, my badminton rackets, TZ18ians and UTAR life...

Huan went back to Melaka again, so fast, just one week. Had been long time never gather with him for so long since he went to KMM in May... Maybe that's the reason why everyone is not willing to let him go..
How rare we can gather for so long in one year time? Last time i had started to get use to that he is studying in Melaka, not around Klang.
I thought the situation this time is same as every time he came back to Klang during weekend for maybe 30 hours ~ but end up i realize, we spent almost the whole holiday together, and this causes me to be emo when he is leaving Klang again.

Sometimes i just don't like to be mature. Mature, means we need to consider lots of things, before we do somethings.. And sometimes, those considerations are just so annoying. I just don't like, cause all these things can even make some of us feel irritate to some others, or even cause some of us to quarrel.
I just don't like, especially quarreling between friends. Best friends will just argue, never quarrel, right?

HER, i don't know what i wanna say.
I realize that she is so important to me. 
I concern about her, care about her, and i knew all these don't worth
Maybe, that's the part she is special from others. 
Now i miss her a lot, which i never had that kind of feeling before.
A very very very, and i mean very very very strong feeling. 
Because, i start to miss her, from the first second, she is out of my vision.
But i can't do anything, because the magnet theory, the very first quote i created myself, applies everytime.
"Sometimes things go like that. You wait for something for a long period of time, and you decided to let it be... End up it comes nearer to you when you start to release it. I used to get nearer to it but, it was like two magnets with the same pole, repelling each other... There is always a fixed and unchangeable distance in between, no one or nothing can overcome it...."

Suddenly i very miss my dear TZ18ians after watching the video about TZ18 made by Lik How, in facebook.
It's 27 minutes long, and i spent all the time watching it. I like all the photos, and enjoy the background musics. Nice match, Lik How! He truly has the potential to be a movie maker. Wow!
Watching the video, every moment we spent together came into my mind. I always remember our laughter no matter where we were.
So sad that we knew each other so late, and we got closer so late. The time offered for us to spend together not much and not enough. And yet most of us will be separating in the next sem.
I hate sem 2 right now, but things will be totally different, if TZ18 remains in the next sem.
I like to have a fixed group of best buddy... That's why.
Starting my sem 2, my secondary school friends will all go back to their school and continue their studies... and i will not be with my dearest TZ18ians all the time anymore. 
LOL. It sounds not very nice.

Argh, i don't want to count down for sem 2. ><

Thursday, September 16, 2010

What A Bad Day

I thought today will be a good ending for the whole holiday plans
But as things go on, i know it wont be, at least not a perfect one.

I lost my beloved two rackets, and hooi shan's another two rackets.
So upset, because that two rackets accompanied me for many years, more than 10 years for the longest one.
They accompanied me since i really join the badminton sports when i was in form 1
How sad, i used them to play in every matches every time i play badminton, and now they left me, alone.

So disappointed to myself.
I hate that things do not go on smooth when people trust me.
Shan did ask me to help her to fix her broken rackets, and i did half of it today before went to the BBQ party, and after that, they all gone.

What was in my mind was, i brought 4 rackets out from my house, and bring nothing back home.
Then i emo already. I don't like this kind of thing to happen, yet why it comes to me now?!
I was so excited when i success to fix the cushion grip for shan and after that my efforts were wasted totally.
I was hugging the four rackets in ding xian's car when we were on the way to kah wee's house but now i have nothing to hug anymore.They GONE.
All these comparison picture keep on come to my mind and this makes me really upset right now.

Sincerely apologize to shan for losing her rackets and
Sincerely thanks her for not blaming me after the incident, instead she did console me for losing my beloved rackets.
But i really feel guilty... Sigh.

I failed my day.
EPIC FAIL!!!

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

School reopen? Nooooo!!

My school holiday is going to end, very soon.
I was quite anticipating to study in sem 2 before the holiday starts but now, after i have enjoyed my holiday, i dont feel like wanna study in sem 2 yet ><

I really did enjoy my holiday very very much, gathering with all my old schoolmates who went back from other places all around M'sia.
We went to KLCC for the book fair, sing K & watch movies, and played badminton
Of course, including the main activity in this holiday --> the Kuala Selangor 2 days 1 night trip.
And today, we went to Taman Pertanian again~
Tomorrow, we are going to watch movie and having our very very first time BBQ party as our Mooncake Festival celebration ~
So pack! but the time passes soooo fast
I dont want to face all the assignments!
Argh!!!!!

My holiday is not enough
Really, really, really!!
I need more!!

Monday, September 13, 2010

Welcome!! =)

Started my new life, that's why, i decided to start a new blog.
Since my old blog stop at a post about sad separation, so just let it be the last one.

And yeah, i am here again, blogspot! Had been long time since the last time i wrote in blogspot.
Was planning to open a new blog since few weeks ago but keep on stuck at what should i put for my blog URL and blog title. Ya, and finally i created it just now.
May be i will type most of the post in English, but still, some will be in Chinese if i don't know the words ==
But please, forgive my breaken english and not-so-good grammar =)

So
Welcome and feel free to leave your comments =)
Sincerely appreciate and thanks =D